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Survive
03:00
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survive, survive, survive
just to spite the bastards
go on and thrive
in the spoiled earth that you didn't deserve
but the world rarely gives you what you deserve
unless you're born into a class that grades on a curve
if you manage not to die in your crib
survive just to make em all choke on their glib
self-satisfaction
confidence is for psychopaths and
dumbass shiny rich kids
know what you are and who's standing on your neck
]dig your teeth into their ankle, let em know you're not bled dry just yet
when all your hope seems to disappear
\it was never really there
and you can get near as much mileage out of
fighting off the crushing despair
survive, survive, survive
completely out of spite
and if life tastes bitter, and from now on it might
learn to love it, that coppery taste
of your own blood in your mouth
you've taken too many slugs to get out without
spitting out some teeth
try to aim for the other asshole's
cheering gallery
it doesn't get better it just gets less sharp
the points start to wear down after they've hit their mark
again and again and again over the years and you go numb to the attacks
but the pain still sears
and when every single moment that stands out in your mind
is a crushing defeat or just one of the times you tried your hardest
and still didn't even come close
it seems dumb to keep trying, but who said you were smart anyway?
fight on until the last smug fuckers concede
and all the people who told you you were rotten or diseased
stop laughing
then save the last one for yourself
and if it tastes hollow
it's just that your soul already left
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The Process
01:56
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I'm in the process of losing my mind
I've got a great setlist worked out for the rubber room
Yes I'm in the process of losing my mind
Bet you didn't know it was a process
Bet you thought it could never happen to you
It starts out slow
Things start to pile up
Till you're surrounded
And you're drowning
Then you're mixing metaphors
See phantom spiders
Crawling on the wall
Jump out of bed
Catch your senses
It's clear they were never there at all
But it's not that clear
And you can't shake it off
And you quake
And you stare
At the ceiling
Wide awake, as the shadows conspire
To keep you from ever sleeping again
I'm in the process of losing my mind
I'm putting all of my sharp objects in storage
Yes I'm in the process of losing my mind
Bet you didn't know it was a process
Bet you thought it could never happen to you
Did I lock the door?
Should I go check?
Fine I'll go check
Didn't I do this already
twenty-six times this hour?
What was that noise?
Maybe my imagination
Or maybe I should
turn all the lights on
and pace around the house
until dawn
But the light keeps me awake
But the shadow keeps me unsure
What may be lurking
Just beyond my perception
Maybe the real trouble
Is the fixation
I just know I never feel safe
I never feel comfortable at all
I can't control my life, I can't control my environment
I can't control my mind
I can't sleep with all this racket going on
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3. |
Everything Sucks
02:30
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Yeah I don't have friends
And you know that I don't have a job
My immediate family are all dropping dead
And somebody ran over my dog
Most nights I sleep like a baby with colic
And wake up with a spike through my head
I sit around waiting for something to happen
And dreading what might happen instead
I don't want to complain
But the cream of my life has gone sour
I toil and I toil
But it's never enough
My cup's not half-empty
It's full of up-chuck
Whoa oh oh
Everything sucks
You might think this sounds crazy
But it rains every time I leave the house
And that might be alright, but my raincoat dissolved
And my umbrella got turned inside out
I'm so damn unlucky
If I bet against myself I'd still lose
And I feel like a robot who's been programmed to feel
like a human who feels like his life is fucked up
Whoa oh oh
Everything sucks
And I don't have a wing or a prayer but that's no surprise since I don't believe in God
Seems to me the only sure way to true happiness is to fill up your head full of bullshit
All my friends are long gone and no new ones are due because nobody wants me around
and that's probbaly due to the tendency I have to continuously moan about how everything sucks
I might lie and say that I'd rather be happy than right
but you don't get a choice you get tricked into thinking
you've figured it all out and you can sit back and relax
or you never buy into all that crap to begin with
and you spend your whole life just drowning in confusion
though you search and you search for an answer to it all
you'll either die before you find it or eventually give up
Whoa oh oh
Everything sucks
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Silent Letters
03:17
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take all the extra letters
from everybody's misspelled names
and hand them off to nameless things
so they can finally be claimed
take all the silent letters
from all the borrowed foreign words
arrange them into unspoken thoughts
so they can finally be heard
edit your life on video tape
star wipe, zoom out, fisheye, fade
give up and burn the edit bay down
call it the director's cut anyway
lie in bed wide-eyed awake
in the dark see monstrous shapes
are they projections of your restless mind
or literal monsters come to gnaw your face?
get up, never sleep again
be very productive for about a day
completely lose it, have a public meltdown
go home, sleep the crazy away
stare down the clock
till it makes a palindrome
hold your breath for that whole minute
then wait for another palindrome
edit your life on celluloid
cut out the frames you'd rather avoid
splice it together until it makes sense
it's not the truth but it'll play in the midwest
you're very sick, yes, very ill
always have been, and always will
the doctors say it's all your fault
then call you fat and hand you a bill
they say you need to get outside
but the sun beats down and burns your eyes
and the fresh air makes you choke and cough
everything's poison if you take enough
pass out on the toilet
throw up down the shower drain
push yourself through all regrets
walk home in the pouring rain
edit your life on reel-to-reel
listen to all the warm analog sounds of
your constant fuck-ups and awkward moments
then lock the master tapes away for good
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Anticlimax
03:15
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Staring down the tunnel and there is no light
It wasn't night when I came in and I can feel my future's headed down
There is no horizon when you're underground
No one lit this pathway, I don't know the void from Heaven now
I'm not flying, I am trudging through the dirt
There's too many sets of footprints am I marching around in circles?
Who made all these promises of promised lands?
I'd like to see someone in management so I can know just where I stand
There's nothing to be afraid of
Except for everything
There's nothing to look forward to
Except for nothing
Oblivion is waiting, come on in, the water's fine
There is no water obviously just the dissolution of your mind
There's no fire waiting and there's no reward
I can only say it so much without sounding like a broken record
Nothing lasts forever especially not you
You're an accident of nature you'll be easily diffused
There's no little pea or beam of light into the sky
All you are is sponges talking and they'll soon bid you goodbye
When you take that final breath how much will be left of yourself?
How much of yourself can you lose before you're someone else?
An anticlimax is your life
If it peters out or burns so bright the third act still needs rewrites
I can't offer comfort, I wouldn't know how if I tried
But laugh sometimes when it's not funny
It's not really all that funny most of the time
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Jesus Stays Dead
02:30
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Well the resurrection has been cancelled
The rapture has been postponed
There's no one kicking inside that tomb
So don't bother to roll that stone
Well you know Lazarus had a good run
But now he's bleeding out from the ears
Yeah and Jesus stays dead this year (repeat title as needed)
Don't you try to walk on water
You'll only end up wet
Gorge on the blood leave the body for lunch
And you'll be in a fevered sweat
Shut yourself up tight inside your hole
With a ten year supply of canned beans and booze
Clutch your rifle and wait for a knock on the door
Shoot to kill if they come to tell you the Good News
Who will hear my confession?
Whisper it into an old tin can
Fill a bag up with gravel
Go out wading in my socks till I lose sight of land
Well the world's not ending it's just on hiatus
Go on and wash away those tears
Cause just this once and never again
You know Jesus stays dead this year
Nobody coming to take the wheel
Because Jesus stays dead this year
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